Things That Are Happening When Nothing Is Happening
Sometimes I feel some weird self-imposed pressure to 'announce' stuff regularly. For once, I'm not going to over-analyze this TOO much, but it does bring up this great idea I heard about a while back concerning the word 'fallow'. That word basically refers to something that's inactive or not in use. I've generally heard it used in terms of nature, as in a field or something that's fallow, with no visible vegetation, life, etc. I heard this great bit on the radio a while back about the desert, and how even when the desert is in its fallow state and looks completely barren, there's so much goin on behind the scenes. The new growth is literally getting ready to get above ground. There's as much goin on then as when we can see all the pretty flowers and such. That moment of hearing the nature-guy talk about it changed me forever. I worry so much less about times when I don't feel 'creative' or 'productive'. I can be sure that there is no moment in which 'more' or 'less' is happening. Every single moment is just the same. And, of course, utterly unique.
So, with that in mind, here are some things that are happening while nothing appears to be happening:
I just wrote a sweet new song while thinking of and missing my girlfriend. I've showed it to some friends and I'm sure I'll share it more publicly soon. It's not that it's scary or overly personal in any way, it just feels nice to listen to it myself, have it on a personal level before letting it out to anyone that is curious. Speaking of which, the fact that anyone outside my immediate circle of loved ones is curious about what I make or these very words I'm writing right now is something which I am forever ridiculously grateful for. 'Nuff said.
I wrote another song that arrived after a young woman died of cancer. I'd played a benefit for her about a year ago, sorta gotten to know some people close to her. The song just arrived. I didn't 'try' to write it. I sort of hate the idea of 'trying' to write songs about 'important' things, actually, but that's a whole 'nother story. Again, I've shared the song with her community, and I'm sure it'll make it into the world in various ways, but I'm really just into enjoying it (songs, making stuff and sharing it, etc) on the most personal levels.
I'm relatively close to having completed a children's book. I've had the text for a while now, but I've partnered with an amazing young design group called Just Our Thought that is working on the imagery with me. I have no idea how it'll be realized and released (there may be a Kickstarter invitation comin your way soon).
I just rocked a beautiful, progressive Bar Mitvah in Portland and got a little ceremony for myself in the process. I wasn't raised Jewish or anything, so I got given a Hebrew name and stuff, it was really neat. Turns out my mom's (whose name is Ann) Hebrew name is Hannah, which is my daughter's name. I've kinda known that for a while, I think my mom told me when Hannah was born, but it never really occurred to me how cool and symmetrical it is until I learned that my Hebrew name is Yonah ben Hannah. Here's what the rebbe said:
Rabbi David Zaslow: Ann is a derivative of Hannah, which means "grace." So your full Hebrew name would be Yonah ben Hannah which translates as The Dove son of Grace or Dove-man son of All that is Graceful. (Yonah means 'dove').
Me: Wow... My daughter's name is Hannah :-)
DZ: That's the way the soul works sometimes...in some mysterious way, something not completed by your mother Ann will be healed and fixed by Hannah. Something like that. So as you are Yonah ben Hannah, your daughter is Hannah bot Yonah
So yea, pretty neat.
I'm singing at a sweet wedding this weekend. I'm in touch with some more folks about various personal occasions and my music being a part of them. I'm loving the fact that people that grew up listening to music I've been a part of are getting married and having kids and all sortsa other life stuff and that they're asking me to be a part of all that in so many ways. Overall, I'm just really enjoying this awareness that music I've made has really been a part of people's lives, the same way music that others have made has been such a significant part of mine. Simple, I know, but it's really gettin me good lately.
I'm gathering songs and ideas for another Covers album (might be another Kickstarter for that one, I like the idea and the way they're makin it happen). Through Unique Recordings, making them for friends and loved ones and just general music geekiness, I've got quite a few ideas. We shall see.
I'm trading lots of music with some friends and in doing so remembering how much I love Prince, Miles and lotsa other artists.
I cleared out a storage space and found so much cool stuff. I'll be posting it soon somehow for sharing, for sale, who knows.
Oh, so much more could be said about all this and more. My daughter's nearly grown and off to her own adventure, being in love continues to pry my strange little heart open (which keeps being scary and beautiful in equal measure), music keeps reminding me how much it means to me, making stuff continues to be so much fun, keeping in touch keeps going right along with that. I don't have any shows booked right now (a few in the works, but nothin planned and no plans to try to plan too many, really). I have a relatively new album that I still love lots, and I might do more to tell the world about it. I have website and various internett-y places that I try to keep up with and have tons of ideas about. I'm recording all the time, whether it's ideas from people or ideas from me. Basically, though, this is me lately, going through life. Wherever you're at, if you're feeling fallow, hope this helps you remember how full you really are, all the time.